You brought me back from the wilderness!

For anyone wondering whether I fell off the face of the Earth, evaporated into the digital void, or got lost somewhere between a guitar warehouse and customs:

Hi. Yes. It’s me.

The YouTuber who vanished longer than a guitar shipped from China.

From July 2025 to the end of January 2026, I posted zero videos. Not a blurry community post. Not a “my camera died lol” excuse. Nothing. I ghosted the platform harder than someone avoiding their new gym membership in February.

Today, I’m finally ready to explain what happened — honestly, dramatically, and with a healthy dose of wow, I really did that, didn’t I?

Burnout: The First Domino
Let’s start with the big one: burnout.

Imagine trying to edit 4K video on a brain running Windows 95. That was me. Every day I’d say, “Tomorrow I’ll film a video.” And every tomorrow, my brain replied, “No, you won’t.”

Fun fact / fake news: around 90% of YouTubers experience burnout. The other 10% are either lying or made of titanium. I was not titanium.

Also, 70% of YouTube channels stop posting and go dark in just three short years. Had I become part of that all too real statistic?

Illness: The Victorian‑Novel Era
During those seven months, I collected random illnesses like a Victorian character in a tragic story. I’d come home from work, blink, and wake up three hours later like someone had unplugged and rebooted me.

And speaking of work — there was a lot of it. The kind that drains your soul until staring at a wall feels like a productive evening.

Low Motivation… or Depression?
There were days I genuinely wondered: Is this low motivation, or have I become a houseplant?

Either way, just like my house plants, I wasn’t thriving. Like them, I needed sunlight, hydration, and maybe someone clapping encouragingly nearby. I didn’t have any of that.

The Sad Kind of Laziness
Yes, some of it was laziness — but not the fun, Netflix‑and‑sofa kind. (And certainly not the Netflix-and-Chill kind.) More like: I physically cannot function, so I will become a blanket burrito and hope the world leaves me alone.

Disappointment: The YouTube Rollercoaster
Then came disappointment. With my channel. With growth. With views. With comments. You may know that feeling when you work really hard on something and YouTube replies:

“Brilliant! Here are 17 views and a comment from a bot.”

Except I didn’t even get bots. I got real people saying, “You suck.” 

Not exactly motivational.

A Traumatic Personal Situation
Towards the end of the year, things got genuinely difficult. Every evening — and I mean every evening — was spent dealing with a personal situation that swallowed all my time, energy, and emotional capacity. I had to dig deep and find personal reserves that I didn't know I had.

I wasn’t filming at 2 a.m. because I was too busy trying to survive real life.

The Twist: I Wasn’t Out of Ideas
Here’s the weirdest part: I had loads of ideas. Enough to make two videos a week. I even had two or three unopened boxes of guitars and gear sitting there silently judging me for months.

Picture me walking past them daily:

“Yes, I see you. No, I can’t unbox you. Please stop looking at me like that.”

I’ve since unboxed two. Progress.

The Consequences: Losing Partner Status
Because I stopped posting for so long, I actually lost my YouTube Partner status at the end of January 2026. That means I'm not getting paid for video advert views. Despite over 28k subscribers, I was back to creating videos for zero income. Something I worked incredibly hard to earn just… evaporated...

I later found out that one single post on the channel - a comment, a picture or a poll - would have been enough for me to retain my partner status and income.

Oh, well, you live and you learn...

As I said earlier, statistically, 70% of channels go inactive within three years. Apparently, I said:

“Let me contribute to that statistic real quick.”

The Comeback Plan
But here’s the good news: I’m not giving up.
 - Not on you.
 - Not on the channel.
 - Not on partner status.

I now have a structured plan to stay consistent — at least consistent enough to stop YouTube from snatching my status away again. No more seven‑month disappearances. No more digital tumbleweed.

I’m back. Re-energized and re-born!

And I’ve finally opened those boxes. Well… two of them, anyway. But still.

What the Last Seven Months Taught Me
If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s this:

Creativity doesn’t die. Passion doesn’t expire. And sometimes the bravest thing you can do is simply start over.

Life knocked me off track — hard — but I’m climbing back on.

Thank you for sticking around. Thank you for not unsubscribing. Thank you for giving me a second chance.

New videos are already up, filled with humour, honesty, gear, music, guitars, and hopefully fewer accidental sabbaticals.

Let’s rebuild this channel together.

If you’ve ever gone through something similar — a burnout, a long pause, a life‑derailing moment — I’d love to hear about it in the comments.

And if you haven’t subscribed yet, now’s a great time.

See you in the next video / article!

Remember, stay awesome.

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